UpHiLL WinDs

Exciting afternoon that is my first time to HHH. Met someone new, did interesting exercise, learned much about this international popular event so I felt funny and happy.

At the very start I didnot get the clear idea about how to do it just follow the others. Some guys and girls are very warm, show their hospitality towards me. Because here everyone is welcome if you'd like to join in. 

Today for me is a good start since rain in the morning make road muddy, my sports shoes stick in the mud. Then I have to put off my dirty heavy shoes walk on naked foot. Huhhh, good try :-) Then get over a net wall. Everyone is funny.

Later on we step across the underbrush path. There are different signs so I follow the most, haha! Go right way but in a muck! After beer stop, we go in a forest park, I think, it's possibly near to our start place. Ummmmmmm, not too bad so far.

Yes, we come back, huh. What's waiting for us? Down downs! That is beer time for today's celebration. All together stand in a circle, no side talking, no hands in pocket, no smoking, no new shoes, no excuse for any drinking, just follow the rules. The most interesting part is showing up. People point out someone's mistake, sing a down downs song, they must drink a glass of beer. So funny, guys always have some reasons let you drink. Anyway, I enjoy it so much! 

At dinner, talking with some nice guys but food is just so so. I like HHH and this interesting Saturday.

Sometimes people need to be active, never wait for others' initiative. 
Just do it !

Apart  from Hate in three moths ago, my heart is lost as before...
Almost two and half months passes, my application still on waiting status...
I have met  PD for about two months, there is no much improvement...

Everything is quite stillly as long as someone breaks the silence. But the question is when and who will? Little white, please dont cry, dont be sad. I am not brave enough to let you in for our uncertained future. One day goes, r u okay?

Morning is sort of fuggy. Some predicts cool this summer because of the devastating earthquake. Hope GOD bless all victims, give them energy to pull through disaster and to survive. Millions of people disappeared, lost families, or painfully injured. Besides donation all I could do for them is pray   They will be in heaven...

Looking forward to any good news ..^^^^... PD, is that you?

Too many ideas in my mind, they are fighting with each other everyday, every moment while I am trying very very hard to figure out the best. People around me seems to live happier and clearheaded, but I am always concerned about  my next stop which becomes more and more blurry. After that damned affair, I reencouraged myself  to pursue my dream, so CA application had been eventually done. It lasts a long long time to this step even though I may not achieve. Hope... I need hope, just a hope! I dont know from when on, my life gets gray and gray...

Today, there's no much work,  I browse friends' space usually never leave any comments but think of them. WANZI must be working quite hard with sufferings, bless you & MISS Uuuuu! I remember every happy hour we have n hope to see u soon. You might find your way to live on and your M. Right. For me all is gone, at present I should quit, immi, marry and study which is my last choice (sorry for MUM). For another blog, we were study together for a short time but KELA succeeds as a standout to some extend obveriously. Meanwhile, I was experiencing different lifestyle no matter it suits me or not. Be a pretty girl, a intelligent girl, a mature girl, and then turn to a beloved wife

Yesterday night, I broke one's heart and today the other seriously showed his affection towards me. I dont know! It must be a  emotional circle so there is a word on earth that we called ~~"destiny"~~. I did believe in love but not remoted, welllllll in the other hand, I am capable of  being loved by aliens. He really wants or jokes? I dont know. A great tempation at least. 

Two weeks ago, Effie introduced me a CA Chinese who came back only for marriage. That sounds good before I am sure he is not my type. Why I cannot persuade my heart to accept this then I could be in dreamland CA soon... YES, little white said right:" sometimes chance flies by my side without seizing, that's your own fault, noone blamed. "  ~~~~ Please forgive me and thank you (",)